"He's like the big brother I never had..."
I remember I said stuff like that about you
Before we started dating and even when I was your girlfriend
And if I can recall I slept on your couch a few times as well
While I refuse to assume that any of this means anything
It makes me uneasy because...
part of it sounds familiar
and I can't watch shut
a door that I would like to remain open.
I mean what if...
I can't even finish that statement because
the way my mind has run with this
makes my head spin and
My ex-still wannabe-girlfriend radar has been tripped
and I guess I'm trying to say that
It was too much information for me.
I mean when I was hearing it,
quite matter-of-factly, I tried to keep my composure.
You know how you really don't want to hear
but you act like you want to hear and are interested
all without seeming superficially eager, which would be worse
than just not listening
Don't worry I'm a big girl
I won't run the other way
because this isn't about me
and it certainly aint about you.
Regardless of how I thought I felt
when I was informed of these things casually
I can say honestly I was where I was supposed to be
and that really has nothing to do with you and me
or if 'we' or 'us' is ever plausible.
If God didn't intend for me to be there
being there wouldn't have fit like the glove it was.
But not ONCE did I feel out of place...
so if hanging around means that I'll have to
hear things about you that I'd rather not...
I say 'ok'.
It's a small price to pay when you really think about it.
Posted on 12.3.2005 at 4:53 AM
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