I did something a moment ago that I've been needing to do for a while... I let go. I feel like I've been clinging onto what was all semester and that facebook connection was the remnant of it. I will never move forward if I can't cut my deepest ties, the ones that are unhealthy for me. You're a great friend you really are, but maybe that's all we're meant to be. I mean it's still too early to tell right now... but for now I've done what I've had to do to find out. I wouldn't let myself let you go, but today I found the peace of mind to do so. Though the thought of seeing you with someone else still gets to me a bit, I trust that God is leading you to that person that is tailored to who you are and I REALLY don't think that's me at this point in my life and personal being... not that you ever said I was. I felt like I was constantly making myself a square peg in order to rightly complement you, but I am who God has fashioned me to be thus far and I can't fight that. As much as this hurts I must allow myself to move on emotionally instead of clinging to what if's.
Posted on 12.22.2005 at 3:04 AM
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