so done.

still thinking about Monday night/Tuesday morning for some reason. I guess maybe it's my obsessive quality. I think a lot about a lot... or maybe just a little. I'm glad that my finals are over. I don't know if I passed abnormal psych tho... that would be all my fault tho. NO excuse there whatsoever. You live and you learn though right?

So now I'm up in 8th st. We finna go somewhere. I'm just excited about the 'go' part of that sentence. I can't say that I'm really too concerned with where. Maybe tonight will take my mind off of what's really going on for a while. Me and my namesake were shopping earlier today up in Atlantic Station and I was very depressed, tryna be cool. I didn't get to do the one thing I wanted to do this afternoon... talk. I mean me and her talked, but I kinda needed to talk to someone else. I realize that my life now really has little or nothing to do with his life and I will never again know what the heck is going on in his life. I can't believe I forgot his mom's bday was last Saturday. Well, I guess I can excuse myself for that. Fact is though, we really have nothing to do with each other and the fact that we go to the same church is a coincidence... but what can you really do?

I don't know how I feel right now. I had a lil bit of rum, not enough to have any affect on me. I guess I'm sleepy cuz I had about 4 hours last night. I don't yet know how to be excited about the fact that finals are over. I had a little fun shopping, but I was all shopping around a whole bunch of couples and stuff so that made me feel a little bad not that it should. I mean, my life is iight I guess. I don't need a guy to make my life meaningful but I have turned my back on the One who gives meaning. How long will I continue running in the other, opposite, obviously WRONG direction? This is really pathetic. Ok, I have to go now I'm up here blogging in a newly full room of people. I'm embarassed now.