From Monday night to last night to now... is this a lost week? I had fun last night... what I remember. The benefit to being inebriated is the ability to act a fool and not feel any shame. I am thankful that I did not act a complete fool, but the amount I drank was completely inexcusable. I keep saying I need to "get my life right" and "pull it together" but saying it is not getting me anywhere and I haven't even been doing the basics of spiritual upkeep... well not upkeep, but let's just say Jesus and I aren't necessarily in touch like we used to be and I haven't lifted my heart to remedy the situation. I keep wondering just how far all of this will go and if it will end badly or if I will have the strength to put an end to this downward cycle that has become my life.
::sigh::
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