my nerves

I'm freaking sick of feeling the need to apologize to others for who I am. I am who I am, and that shouldn't merit the need for an apology. God will change me where He sees fit. If you think I'm saddity or stuck up then you're just not that dude. If my gaze seems to be looking over you, you're not that dude. I know that God has big things in store for me, so if you're not gazing in the same direction or at the same aptitude as me you're not meant for me. I may have played with this relationship deal in the past when I was younger, but now this stuff is really serious. I am ever aware that I could meet my husband at any moment (or even scarier, I may already know him). I know what I want in a man, God knows what I need, and I think the two are compatible to an extent. I don't waste time developing situations that will lead to obvious dead ends. So, excuse me if I appear to not give you the time of day or put in a lot of effort to getting to know you. I have a lot on my heart and mind.