Music at 4am

Despite her best efforts to keep the music quiet, my roomate's playing music at 4am has disturbed me from my sleep. I sleep lightly when it's this late at night (and I went to bed at a decent time). I'm tired of seeing her boyfriend daily. I see him more than I see my friends, but whatever. I keep telling/reminding myself that this situation is only temporary (I'm about to graduate yo) but I'm still like AHHHHHH!!! Why?! I'm just soooo tired of living here and dealing with other people's messiness in addition to my own and other people's noise. While I insist that I will live alone next year, I'm not sure that I would like that either. That will probably be somewhat creepy to me. If I think I'm alone all the time now, how would not having roomates help the situation? It's not like I came back to the room today and someone called me. I did turn my phone off at 11pm tho... can't have folk calling me while I'm sleeping like yesterday. 3:07am?! seriously. I think sometimes if I didn't have aol messenger I'd probably die of isolation, but maybe that would still be better than living here. I know that to rely on people is a lie but I still need new friends. I love my girls but I have to make a spiritual move and they'll have me continue to stand still... through no fault of their own but they don't imply movement for me unless it's backwards. So now my tv is on, but she is probably asleep. I dang sure can't sleep with my OWN music on and even a tv next door bothers me so ugh... I get so frustrated at times. I must say, my sleeping pattern is so much better now that I have no life.

On a much lighter note though, I read John 15 and 16 tonight. I even highlighted scriptures that stuck out to me. I prayed afterward as well. That's obviously what I was supposed to do with my time tonight. The verse that stuck out to me was John 16:33: "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." What lead me into my bible study was the daily scripture on biblegateway.com (that's my homepage now). It was 2 Timothy 1:7: "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." I read that and thought about how I'm not exhibiting ANY of those attributes in my life and have allowed those to be latent in me. I'm not really sure how I ended up reading John 15 and 16 but I'm glad I did. I may read them again later today too. I even prayed after I read... however, I probably passed out and went to sleep while praying so I need to change something up about how I pray cuz it was clearly not that late. It's weird cuz I either have a whole bunch of random thoughts while I pray (so I pray while I pray that I will be focused) or I will just pass OUT as I'm praying. Hmm... since I've been awakened, maybe that's what I'm meant to do right now. Well I'm on it. Check me later.