So... Leslie tricked me into going to the Onyx Ball. Only thing is (well there are a couple) I have no date, its the same night as Destinations, I was supposed to go home this weekend. Ah well, too late because I already bought my ticket, dress and shoes, plus I'm kind of excited. I havent bought my jewelry or figured out my hair yet though, but I know that will work out. Leslie is taking her non-black boyfriend. I thought it would be cool if i invited the guy I went out with on Friday night. I don't want him to feel like I'm just trying to make a statement by bringing him cuz he's white though. I don't care what anyone says abou him anyway tho, cuz he's black on the inside like an Uh oh Oreo. We're just cool though. I cant afford to be more than cool with anyone right now. It would be unfair to them.
::randomexcerptfromelsewhere::
If my life was a bowling ball he helped keep me out of the gutter. I needed that, so even though I feel, looking back now, that I was too dependent on hs decisions perhaps God was speaking to me through Him and that may have been the only way I could have heard God during some of that time. Trying to have peace about something in your life doesn't give you peace. I try to reconcile with the idea of not being with Sean, not hanging out with him or anything. I've just lost a big piece of my life. I wonder who or what else God will strip from my life. For now I will just show up at the ball, crimson gowned and alone as usual.
Posted on 2.20.2006 at 12:28 PM
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