I decided that I won't have a Valentine this Valentine's season unless it's completely unavoidable. Been straight feeling like crap for the past few days... heck, the whole week and I need to stop buying into the world's views and expectations of love and focus on God's Ultimate, All- consuming Love. One day my heart will stop hurting for myself and I can be content with where I am just so long as I am in Him. Truthfully right now, smiling hurts... especially smiling at someone in passing where it feels the fakest. I don't know why I feel like I still have to act like I'm ok. It's time for me to stop holding everything in and FINALLY allow Jesus to be my confidant.
I can't go on like this...
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