Today as I was about to get ready for church (after having re-talked myself into it and being on the path to lateness alrady) my toilet decided to do this massive overflow thing, which required my immediate attention and a mop that I wasn't able to get immediately plus towels and other things... and it is STILL bad. Long story short, I missed church as it was the last service of the day and all. One can imagine that after fighting with the toilet and wet bathroom and chasing a resident down for a signature, I was about through...
I put up an away message earlier today saying "struggling. prayer needed." Well, that was me publicizing (to an extent) the inner dialogue I've had going on for the past month or so. I'm spiritually spent. I haven't been abiding in Christ and perched by His living water. Instead here I am parched and barely making it trying to find energy from my far inferior resources as a human. I'm tired of living like this, so forgive me if you find me unavailable during the next few weeks, but I need to take care of the most important relationship in my life if I desire wholeness and clear purpose and usefulness in His kingdom. I've not been surrounding myself(mostly) with people that are edifying spiritually. I need a big sister in Christ to lean on, especially at this time in my life... and I've been sucked back into music that is less-than-godly so it's time to flip the script again. Today is the first day of the rest days of my life and I will no longer be given to complacency... that's just not going to work for me anymore.
On a lighter note, I got to see Sean and Camille yesterday so that was really cool. I miss them both.
Posted on 9.11.2005 at 6:27 PM
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