Vegas Crap
So... I went to Vegas Nights last night. I guess you could say I went because I was bored and it was free (cuz I'm broke). I've decided that from now on I will only be geeked up or slizzard off of Jesus, so for all intents and purposes I was sober this go around, which isn't really a good thing for me at Vegas Nights personality-wise. When we got there we walked to the bathroom at the back and my butt was grabbed at least twice along with my waist and the waistline of my pants, my arm, hand. I expected this, but everyone was more agressive than usual, which was crazy because I was dressed QUITE conservatively, jeans shirt, no midriff, cleavage, toes were covered lol. Why did I subject myself to all of this knowingly?? I guess I went to be around my girls, and I was quite excited when my nostalgic homie decided to come with. I was DEF. glad he was there with us, because it made the other guys more bearable and repelled a few I'm sure. Even so as SOON as we got there in the midst of the dance floor thickness (an abundance of UG-ly thuglike guys) I found myself texting my brother about to whine to him about coming to pick me up and take me home. I decided to be a big girl and stay though, and homie took good care of me. I did dance toward the end of the night... alone though. I turned about 7 guys down. I've decided that I no longer dance with people I don't know in clubs, which means that I'm only dancing with friends and acquaintances... sounds weird, but I'm 'ticky' like that. It worked like a charm at Sutra last Thursday.... not so well at Vision last Thursday, but I wasn't even dancing then. I gave this guy who had been nice to me my card... with my name, blog address and email (nope, not my phone number). I doubt he'll contact me, but either way it doesn't matter.
I Know
I have to say this, it's not a good habit to cut people off with saying "I know" all the time, especially when it's highly possible that the person speaking to you might actually know a little more about something than you do. It's good to humble yourself and hear what they have to say. People can surprise you with how much insight they actually have. Also, there is something to be said for general consideration and decorum, particularly toward people you know nothing about (who can be potentially dangerous), especially when you're not alone. People are crazy, don't piss someone off unecessarily by joining the ranks.Try to consider the well-being of the people with you, if not yourself. If you say something that starts a fight, I'm going to be like Joan (from Girlfriends) and not jump in it. I refuse to fall victim to a "nigga moment"(preciate cha Aaron McGruder) that doesn't even belong to me.
Proverbs pertaining to listening to advice [I'm not including the text to these, but you can look them up easily on biblegateway.com ..... I did spell out the last one because I think it is most poignant, though all are quite relative and provide insight]
10:17
12:1
12:15
13:3
15:18
15:32
16:18
18:1
19:20 (Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. ")
Where da cash at? (behind that preposition)
So I get back from Vegas Nights and I check my account last night. I was supposed to get paid the remainder of my salary for teaching English last month AND my balance had not changed! Naturally I was/am quite salty, but I expected things to not work out with my check today. Sadly, it has been my experience that black organizations tend to not be as reliable with providing the appropriate amount of pay on time. This particular organization has been okay in the past three years that I've worked for them, however, far from splended or timely on many an occasion. This morning at 4 I emailed three of the main people at the organization that have a say in how much I am to get paid and when, because I didn't know who to talk to about not receiving my much-needed money. I was sooooo upset.... but then I gained perspective.
Phil 4:19 (And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.')
So there I was pissed about my sad account balance and feeling like the organization had broken its promise to pay me. I took a shower, still pissed... and then I was like, 'Lord if I hadn't put that tithe and offering in the basket on Sunday I'd be able to take myself to ColdStone and get that waffle cone I've been looking forward to all week.' I was mostly jesting, because I know God has a sense of humor but then I started thinking that maybe God was trying me out to see if I would flip over this money situation. Then it occured to me that maybe I should be praying about all of this, in lieu of storming to campus and demanding my money. I prayed that the Holy Spirit would precede my own steps in dealing with this matter and that I would have the right attitude. I understood/understand the the issue was/is not whether or not I will have enough money to survive off of until I am paid, but whetherI trust God to continue His divine provision in my life. He has made it clear to me that He does not intend for me to starve or go without what I need, so I figured that I should trust Him (now only if I were that mature regarding love and relationships). So yeah, I attacked the situation calmly and prayerfully and I should be receiving the money by Tueday, I pray. There is nothing like money, or lack thereof, to have a Christian lose his/her anointing though. Last night after I prayed I flipped through my study bible to see specifically what Jesus had to say about money and "needs" and I was lead to Psalm, specifically Psalm 23:1 where it says, "The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. " Or in other words, "The LORD is my shepherd, I have EVERYTHING I need." That says to me that my blessings will be abundant... once again if I could translate this faith to my relationships or how I view that whole significant other situation, but it is what it is.
Wow, writing this took me over two hours because I was flipping (electronically) through Proverbs so I'm going to end it now... plus I'm quite hungry and have a headache because of it. I think I'll go sit beside the pool and read more.
Posted on 8.11.2006 at 4:13 PM
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