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Everything has to change... now.

I'm finally getting my apartment in order (I just bought another chest of drawers from IKEA to accomodate for the REST of my clothes that won't fit anywhere else), so everything should be pulled together quite nicely and neatly by the time I get my living room set. If only my life were in a similar situation.

Like I said, "Everything has to change" and it will, beginning with where I spend my free time. There has been too much of a spiritual conflict between me and clubs, so I won't go. For now I'll say that's my final answer unless I find myself presented with a situation in which God would grant me peace about going. At the moment, I'm inwardly ok with chilling at lounges and conversing over one or two drinks... and also going to Apache Cafe for mic club, though the subject of that particular event is quite harsh. I don't feel 'out of place' there, guys don't grab at me there... so it's still ok for now. I like the craft of freestyling (so that's why I go), but I do wish that they would find better things to say to each other when they're competing. I have to change the music I'm listening to. This will probably be, by far, the hardest change for me to make. I could start by resetting all of the radio station presets in my car. I can also get the bible on cassette for probably REAL cheap right about now (I don't have a CD player in my car). Hm, that's what I'll do... bible on cassette. That's an excellent start. I can get rid of the music that I have that I know I probably shouldn't listen to... kinda like I did before, but for real.

more later
Posted on 8.16.2006 at 3:19 PM