Crippled

I am highly upset about my phone not working in my apt area over the past two days... now I'm really on an island. I don't trust now. I don't trust anyone to listen to how I feel and respond appropriately. Also, I'm no longer interested in opening up to someone just so I can be hurt all over again. I'm still licking my wounds. All I do is pout now. I didn't even attempt the charade yesterday at church. God knows what's up. At the same time I don't want to open up and drag someone else into how crappy I feel. I mean I know that's like saying that people are weak, but that's not what I'm trying to say. I mean that if someone is feeling great why should they have to worry about how I feel? Maybe that's why I don't speak up. It's not that it ever bothers me when people bring their problems to me, so why am I tripping? Also, I don't like the staff at my apt complex. I would like to move, although I'm sure most other people are equally as fake. It is nice to know, however, that this is not my imagination.