So after not being sick ever for about 3.5 years... I have freaking strep throat. I felt like crap today and mom forced me to go to the doctor and see what was wrong with me. When I came back from the doctor's office and took my medicine I felt like I was about to DIE seriously. It took me forever to fall asleep. I woke up about 9hrs later... 9pm. Took a shower and then made a phone call I had been looking forward to making all day... only for it to not happen. That's cool though because maybe I shouldn't be doing a whole lot of talking right now... or maybe I'm just telling myself that. I bought Amel Larrieux's new CD "Morning" today. I love it, but I am weird so maybe you have to be weird as well to appreciate it as much as I do. Listening to some of the songs I'm hearing similar situations and feelings that I've been through.
After thinking sooooo much this weekend and having the experiences I had, I finally concluded that sometimes you really have to just release things and not look back... especially when the situation continues to be hurtful. So aside from maybe a few more poems, I won't speak on my particular situation again. I can't even call it my situation anymore because I'm stepping out of it. I can't continue to stick my neck out and shoot myself in the foot repeatedly when it doesn't even matter. I'm moving on and letting whatever fall by the wayside. There's a point at which you have to realize you're being/have been stupid... and I was stupid to let this get this far, so no more words.
Posted on 6.2.2006 at 4:59 AM
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