leaving Destin

An avg of 38 views a day? Wow, who is reading my journal. That's cool tho. I'm thinkin it's summer, and people are bored enough to read about my life, which can't be much less boring than theirs I'm thinking. Maybe everyone's life is interesting to someone else... but that's not why I do this. After I write I'm less stressed about things. Recently a theme of my life has been keeping in touch with people. I'm sooo bad at that if it's not via AIM. I reallllly need to get that together. I think that will need to be a well-developed part of my adult life but I must also realize that some friendships and aquaintances will naturally fall away. I guess they pan themselves out. You really can't be tightly intimate with more than like 3 people at a time. When I say that, I mean like so close you communicate multiple times a week, or day. There are people I know I'm tight with that I only talk to like every other month... that's why I know I have to do better. Back to my point about being tight with 3 people... the older I get a relationship with a fiance or husband (we hope) is going to cause some of my tighter friendships to take a backseat. If you mingle that with long distance and friends who have their own families you do end up being closer to those who see you on a more daily or weekly basis. My mom's best friend for life lives abt 4 or 5 hours away and they probably talk monthly unless some drama happens, but you know they are tight forever. However, due to circumstances my mom has another 'best friend' more like sister in her vicinity that she seems more tight with. They're thick as theives cuz it takes less effort to be around each other I think... and because Ms. Tina is a really great person of course. My point is that life just happens like that. It's up to me to preserve and water my friendships long-distance or close up that I feel are worth keeping. If I'm calling that's letting someone know that I actually do value our connection. See, that's why I need to pick up the phone. I just loathe the phone so much. It's so easy to not understand what a person is saying if you're not used to being around them... but I haven't stuck around long enough to see whether or not phone conversations get better when you speak on the phone to a person more often. I'd say I had seen that when I talk to my sis in New Orleans but I think her accent is a lil less prominent now. Even so, I will stop being selfish and I will call those people I think about and never call... maybe not thinking about a person is a sign that they shouldn't be apart of my life again, lol.... I'm making a list of the people I need to keep in touch with right now....

So anyway, we're leaving Destin. Pika and I were not able to dodge waves very hard today because the water was full of algae EWWWW... and huge clumps of seaweed making it very unpleasant, ick. I just couldn't do it. I'm glad we were out there for a long time yesterday. I'm so dark now if I ever had house negro status in the first place... it is completely revoked. I have to get used to this skin tone, but I must say I like this sunkissed me.... I wore sunblock tho cuz I dont' want to age prematurely, get skin cancer, or sunburn. I know to think that I'll sunburn may sound a little crazy, but I refused to go to the beach around high noon and the first couple of days that I made it out there at around 1pm my face started to burn (with sunblock!) so I was like aww hell. My dad who is yellow made fun of me (I'm brownskinned, I think I'm the color of a pecan shell pre-tan in case you are reading this and have absolutely no idea what I look like) for thinking that my face was burning, but it really was and I dont do the peely face thing, so I came out of the sun. I didn't burn yesterday though. That's when I got tan for real. I'm quite a few shades darker now. I don't know how to describe my coloring but I do think it's quite nice.

My stay at the beach has been one of the best, but I must say it was missing homegirls (I needed someone to talk to about random stuff besides my baby sis and mom) and hot guys (where WERE they?!). Next time I come to the beach it will have to be a group trip of males and females my age.... and I would like to actually be in the caribbean with a constant light flow of alcohol in my system. :) jus CHILLin. It's fun to dream... sometimes they become reality so I'll hold on to this one.

If anyone wants to help me by providing a pick up truck or large vehicle to transport furniture pieces from ikea and/or (help me) put my ikea stuff together sometime this week or weekend feel free to holla at me: email or private message on easyjournal.
Posted on 6.18.2006 at 4:00 AM