Coppertone

So, I'm officially tanned... like for real now you can tell I'm at/went to the beach. There's no question. It's cool cuz I have two more days left of beach fun if you count today. Last night we went to Bonefish Grill for dinner, it was good but I do think I should have ordered something other than what I had. I'm having fun at the beach, but it would be more fun with homegirls or a boyfriend I think. Yesterday this lady thought I was 15... I'm 22 dammit. Of course though, if you already look young and you're vacationing with your parents and younger sister people are going to think that you're young. It's crazy though because that means she thought I was only 2 years older than my sis Gabby who is actually 9 years younger than me. I'll be upset when/if people start assuming I'm older than I really am though so I'll chill. I haven't seen any fine guys at Destin at all, but I did come here to vacation so maybe its best that there aren't any guys in this backdrop to further complicate my life. I have enough complications as it is and some tough decisions I need to make soon before things get ugly. There is so much to think about, God and I are going to have to have some conversations because I need to know what to do. I'm not interested in stepping in the wrong direction anymore. Some things are looking up though, like I'll be employed next month but its negative a little too because it's only for July, lol. There were these jobs at Ga State that I didnt apply for because I realized that a full-time job was NOT going to do it, at all. I am wondering now if I should fix my schedule so that I'll only have class Monday and Tuesday instead of Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday but I think it would be wise for me to leave it like it is since this isn't undergrad and having classes so close together might be difficult for me in terms of completing my work. I'm excited about school now though, just maybe not about transportation to school. MARTA, really? I'm not above MARTA but last week was the first day I had ridden it alone, which may sound bad to you but it is close quarters with a lot of people you really don't know at all... sigh... and then it just feels really nasty like they seldom clean it, and the smell. I hate to say it, but ewww. On the other hand, you gotta do what you gotta do. MARTA would save soooo much on gas, esp if I work during the day at Ga State for GRA positions, which I hope to do. I'm excited about only having to take care of myself right now. It would be nice to have a husband to take care of me, especially financially right now, but in the end he'd be someone else I need to take care of while now I just need to focus on school and getting out of there as fast as I can! I feel like it won't end soon enough and I haven't even started yet!!! Five years sounds like such a long time, but I know it will be worth it to become Dr. Me... so much can happen in that amount of time though. Look how much has happened in the nearly 3 years I've had this online journal and 5 years is nearly twice that. I'm freaking myself out by even thinking about it. So much so much so much on my mind I jus can't recline. That's why I'm still awake (I'm bout to go to sleep now) but I'm just thinkin thinkin thinkin about things. I still don't have a bed for the apt, How can I get all that mess from Ikea, who is gonna help me assemble it all, etc., etc.... just driving myself crazy when I know that things are going to work out in the best way for me (at least in the long run). They always do and I should be at peace with that by now but the older I get, the more difficult it is for me to not be a control freak, esp when things affect me so closely most of the time. AHHHH!!!!! ok, enough thinking. I'm going to bed now.
Posted on 6.16.2006 at 5:32 AM