The Word of the Day(WOTD) is GRRRR... You may not think that is a word, but it is. It means that whoever says it is FREAKING frustrated with a lot of things in his or her life... so I say GRRRR! I'm not going to go into detail about it though. I am turning into my worst nightmare. The tasks in my day-to-day life have become a nightmare. Sometimes it's like 'why do I get out of the bed in the morning?' That is not to say that I have nothing to live for... it's just that life has become highly unpleasant for me as a whole... with the exception of a few instances and people. It's weird because I'm still choosing to look on the ever-decreasing bright side of my situation. I'm sure that's because I haven't totally lost sight of eternity. I could use some clarity and energy to seek it. I'm trying to figure out if I'm going through a bit of depression. I'm just floating along, barely motivated to act on anything. My appetite is dropping. Sleep is more precious. I dunno. Over Thanksgiving all I know is that I'm going to write myself into oblivion. I must say that God has gotta be holding me up like a marionette because absolutely no personal resources left. If it were all left up to me I'd probably be completely stagnant... like wouldn't even breathe. That's the depth I've sunk to at this point. There is no intimacy here.
Posted on 11.21.2005 at 11:08 AM
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