weekend duty

It's Friday. I'm trying to be excited, but CLEARLY I will be on duty from 7pm tonight until 7pm tomorrow, which kind of sucks... naw, it actually DOES suck. At the same time I get paid for it, so it's ok... plus I need to save up until the next paycheck and THEN I can go winter clothes shopping (since I really need to). Hopefully no one will call me for duty and I can just chill in my apt the whole time, with the exception of taking duty rounds of course. But yeah, incident free would be awesome. I am excited about this evening. ChoHo and I are having company over. That should be fun... as long as I don't have any crises to deal with in Ctr St and Hemphill. I realized that its not my job I'm tired of... I'm flippin tired of working period. I don't want to do ANYTHING but talk and listen to people and try to help them. The job I'm working this current moment(I have 3) has absolutely nothing to do with that and can be somewhat mundane. Fortunately though, it's still a job. I don't go hungry and I stay clothed, so no REAL complaint here. It's just not my passion. I went to sleep hella early last night, but I don't know why my body still has the NERVE to be sleepy. I do think I treat it pretty unfairly tho. I need to do better by my body, it's all I have. I'm not sure that I care about living 50 years longer than the average person, but I would like to be healthy, so it's time for a change. It starts with my grocery shopping on Saturday night. No more NIlla wafers for me :o)... except on occasion. I will learn how to get sleep in my life. I know I will, with prayer. Pray for me please. Hmm, I've been wondering all week whether or not BP would call me this weekend. We shall see. The suspense is kind of cool tho. How do I feel about whether or not I get called? Well, I know it's all in God's hands so whatever happens or doesn't happen is "for the good of those [me] who love God and are called according to his purpose for them" (Romans 8:28). I choose God's peace on this issue and I trust his judgment... because apart from Him, mine REALLY sucks.
Posted on 11.4.2005 at 11:24 AM