u busy...? not really, just confronted with silence

u busy...?
not really, just confronted with silence
y wit silence?
cuz He need me to listen
and that's what i haven't been
too locked up in my world
surrounded by my friends
or should i say the world i created
to keep me where i'm most comfortable
not alone.

(that was a lil free write... now on to anotha)

must be nice... in the Lyfe kinda way
i used to have something like that
someone like that
and i'm finally able to mourn my loss
with clarity. true tears are withheld
as i sadly realize that i miss who i used to be
when i was with him when we first met
and i don't like who i became
through no fault of his
and a shame that he may never know
who God means for me to be
because that was not me, not me for real.
who am i? it doesn't feel right...
now truth flows freely.
how could i squander who i had
and force him into the silhouette of
what i wanted him to be
not knowing
not seeing
not fully grasping the beauty
already there, if i'd only look.
did i ever look?
i can say emphatically now that i don't miss
being around people;
i miss being around you.
and i wish you everything God has for you
especially now
that i'm not there
to
shade
your
Light.

Posted on 8.8.2005 at 12:21 AM