new FIRST poem

So, I haven't written a poem since 2007... and I decided to get back into it. If you look on this blog, you will see that in late 2005 and much of 2006 I was in a zone. I haven't been able to reclaim that zone since. But now, I don't want to reclaim it because it's time for a new zone. I figured I needed a new "first" poem and decided to dedicate it to someone, which is not normal practice for me. The poem is below. It's obviously more of a direct message than a poem, but its what poured out of me. I hope that this is not only my new first poem, but the last first poem I ever have to write... and I hope the person I dedicated it to doesn't hate it. I'm rusty and had to get the point across... but I can do much better, and I (clearly) owe you a "make-up" poem in the future.

Well, here goes...

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New "First" Poem

This is my new "first" poem
and I decided to write it for you.

Why?

Maybe it's because I think about you a lot
or because I like what you represent
or that I think you're cooler
than you could know.

Your card surprised me,
really did. I still smile about it, but...

I get confused that we don't talk
even though your card said
that you wanted to know more
about me.
It's not like I see you,
so what was the game plan there?

Frustrated.

Then I think, this not talking thing,
it's ok too. Enough on my mind,
and I often hate the phone and don't answer it
Not even for my dad... I did that yesterday.
But this is no big change from before
with you and me prior to meeting,
Except we can send texts now.

You want to get to know me,
but be unconcerned with me most of the time?
Then you should write me letters.
I say that with sweetest intent.
In the sea of everything else in my life,
don't let me forget you.

I don't want to,
but how long can one hold on
to two weeks? Especially given
the circumstances.

Could read your card
every day,
but then that would just be
um... crazy.