So, in the wake of graduation and moving Tallahassee I cross paths with Pip and I can't help but think about how different things might have played out (for better or for worse) had we met back in September when we first connected. I won't say that I regret God's timing or that I even question it. Even with the restrictions of my human heart and mind I can think of quite a few arguments for timing things this way. I won't resent it. I will trust it. I will trust Him. He knows what I need and when. He has shown me and is showing me ESPECIALLY now that HE HEARS ME. What more can I ask for?
When I woke up on the morning of graduation, I was sad. I know I needed to leave Tallahassee, but I didn't want to leave the people who meant so much to me. I allowed myself to be confused by God's timing. I was near tears as I waited an HOUR for my friend to be ready to go to lunch. Because I remembered that I had my bible, I pulled it out and thought of some passages to read. I began with Jeremiah 11, the verses surrounding verse 29. Jeremiah 11:29 and context is so important to me right now. God has a plan for my life, I have a destiny to fulfill and even though I can't see where He is taking me, I know that He is working things in my life for eternal betterment.
My bible quest also lead me to Ecclesiastes 3:11 "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." It reiterated just how beautiful God's timing can be if we don't fight it. Pip may not agree, but there was something beautiful to me about the circumstance of our meeting and being in each other's presence the past two weeks. Also, this verse reminds me that His great plans for my life are grander than the grandest things that I can come up with my own or attempt to work towards.
I'll say no more. Maybe expressing it here in words will help me to process it better though.
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