resignation and loneliness

I am no longer writing on here about the guy. He's not a significant part of my life right now. I shouldn't waste thoughts, action or words. More importantly, I shouldn't get excited about anyone except for Jesus, especially now. I'm being stupid. I'm going to stop. This is the last sentence about him. So... this blog is about my life, and what's going on from the deeper side of things (at least that is the hope)... I guess it's about what God is doing with me in Tallhassee... ironically as I have ONE foot out of Florida. It's kind of sad actually. Two years is too short a time to be anywhere. I <3 my pif and my church (that I'm finally serving at) . I almost don't want to leave but I haven't seen any jobs and I want to be back near my family. When I had cable and internet in my apt, it made me forget how lonely I was... But now that I have neither, I'm confronted with silence and everything I wanted to ignore by focusing my attention on 'entertainment' and other people. It makes me want to cry; but God.