no foolishness in '09

... that especially includes chasing after guys. I thank God for maturity that he has given me and for some of the wisdom he has given me and some of those around me... also for the ability to be discerning (sometimes) when it comes to receiving advice from my friends. I told one of my friends that I had let the guy situation go, and she was like, "You should ask him if he likes you?" I was like "Umm, no... I'm not pursuing him." Then she went into "that's where you and I differ...etc, etc, blah blah." Story short, I was like no. If a man, truly a man, see's something/someone he wants then he will pursue. If he needs more help than I've already probably given inadvertently... he's either not interested enough or not man enough. I can be ok with that.

Yesterday at church the guy doing announcements was like, what holiday is in February? I was baffled... oh, Valentine's Day... yeah, about that.... not a holiday for me. It's great that y'all are planning an event for the married couples with children though. It's not that I want a Valentine, persay. I just wish there wasn't a holiday dedicated to: either the cliched wasting of money because hallmark and retail companies say so (even though you probably do love the person you're with) or reminding you, making you ever aware (singles awareness day) that you don't have someone to decide not to celebrate Valentine's day with... lol. One would think that it would be "business as usual" for me at this point though. At least this year I don't have to go to work on that day. I can lock myself in my apartment, wear PJs all day... stock up on my favorite ice cream and godiva... and be my funloving anti-social self. Maybe that will be the day I begin to watch the complete season of Powerpuff Girls that I ordered. I could try cooking a great meal for one again, without wasting food. I could spend that weekend out of town, but seeing as how I will be going to N.O. to visit my fam the FOLLOWING weekend, that wouldn't be the best use of resources....
...but why is this message about valentine's day? I guess I'm trying to get all my thoughts about it out of my system.

This energy would be better devoted to figuring out how I can honor God on that day rather than waddling around my house alone eating myself into oblivion. I feel like the Lil Mermaid after she had a big fight with her dad about visiting the human world,

When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that world up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world
"Part of Your World" ~The Little Mermaid

Full lyrics (link: http://www.imeem.com/people/ffmJBxZ/music/ZernQ0Vo/disney_little_mermaidpart_of_your_world/ ):

ARIEL
(Maybe he's right. Maybe there is something the matter with me.
I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.)

Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove
Treasures untold
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Looking around here you think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got gadgets and gizmos a-plenty
I've got whozits and whatzits galore
You want thingamabobs?
I've got twenty!
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more

I wanna be where the people are
I wanna see, wanna see them dancin'
Walking around on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - feet!

Flippin' your fins, you don't get too far
Legs are required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down a - what's that word again?
Street

Up where they walk, up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world

What would I give if I could live out of these waters?
What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?
Bet'cha on land they understand
That they don't reprimand their daughters
Proper women sick of swimmin'
Ready to stand

And ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a fire and why does it - what's the word?
Burn?

When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that world up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world