almuerzo

I had lunch yesterday with the guy. He texted me as I arrived to work in the morning and I was pleasantly shocked, irrationaly so I must admit... But whatev. It was just lunch no one paid for the other person or anything... No staring intently into each other's eyes while whispering sweet nothings. Just an extra regular lunch. In fact, as we sat there face to face in the booth... pretty much all of the mystique that had previously surrounded him dissipated...leaving me with just a guy.

I won't be quick to say oh he's whatever to me, but the smoke is cleared now and I realize the err of my fantastical thinking. I don't know this dude. How can he be ANYTHING to me... esp someone special or noteworthy.

I still like him though, and I don't want to play the game or anything... it's just that if I'm feeding someone who hasn't reciprocated at all and they're a guy and we aren't close then I'm being boo boo the fool. If he hasn't been established in reality and proclaimed as mine... I must hold back.