I wanted to write... on a computer, you know, typing but not broadcast it to my friends. This was the easiest way to do it and not type in Word, which I didn't want to do. My life is developing interestingly. It's not drama, but I want to run away screaming and walk into it at the same time. I guess this is fun. I keep interfering and walking away from a big, obvious necessity though. I need Jesus. I need to cultivate that relationship, and all I do is allow myself continually to get distracted and put him down and walk away as soon as I pick him back up again. Then I get frustrated with myself. I went home this weekend and didn't get any farther in my book. I dipped out on my prayers. I don't do my schoolwork until the last minute, then I get frustrated... and there is no excuse.