Here's a concept...

Before you date a guy, get to know him first. Hmm... but I thought... I thought dating was to get to know a person? I was thinking that, until I came across getting-to-know-before-dating. Maybe that would reduce the amount of time wasted and feelings hurt if I did that. Maybe I could remain a little more out of reach that way instead of getting caught up prematurely. That would definitely reduce the amount of pressure on both parties. Maybe I could find out someone smokes weed BEFORE we're sitting at a table in a dimly lit restaurant. Yes, I think this knowing better before dating thing is not simply a good look, but a premium look. Only, who am I kidding? Not myself. In order to plan this out there would have to actually be guys that were interested in getting to know me better, lol. I laugh, but that's for real. These days I'm not so sure that I'm particularly interested in collecting yet another guy friend... but nah, it's cool. I like my guy friends. They've been absolutely wonderful.

I really couldn't ask God for more friend support than I have out here in ATL. In spite of all that, I'm dying to get out of here. I need a new backdrop. I can't WAIT until I move to Tallahassee this July. I have high hopes and aspirations for the two (or more) years I'll be down there, and I'm stoked. I have to take that one BIG step out of my familiar undergraduate scene and move further into who I am as an adult, and the way things are now I know I can't do that here. I have to consciously break away, make new friends, connections, etc. Ok, so I am a bit scared about learning a new place and being alone a lot and not having anyone down there to talk to candidly about my life... but then I think about it, and out here I'm primarily the listener. Only like one or two people make the effort to take the time to save their story and listen to mine. In light of that, what would be the social difference aside from being distant from familiar faces and constant invites to random places? Yeah, I guess that is a pretty big difference, but certainly one I can handle with God. Compared to my desire, need, drive to get the hell out of Atlanta my fears seem soooo minute, so tiny, so negligible.

I'm so uneasy and impatient and ready to leave right now... but I can tell that God has some things to wrap up with me before I step into a new situation. Little by little he's been putting them across my desk: Vertical Moments, the 2 remaining membership classes at Destiny, possibly Leadership Training School, He knows what else. He's preparing me for Florida, building up my faith for the hard times that await me there, teaching me to trust Him and walk in His Will (willingly) for my life and think big, according to the vision He's slowly revealing to me.