I'm in a good place right now with most things. I can't go into details, but I can tell you that I have it made.... unfortunately my development in the spirtual sphere is lacking and I've done some things recently that I could kick my own a** for, but it is what it is. It would be wrong for me to say, however, that I haven't had my share of thrills but I can't keep goin on like this. There is no stability for me and I am starting to find myself in the company of people that I don't feel like I can trust. Before, I used to ask all the necessary questions, but now I leave a lot to chance and discovery... which is ok to a point, but it's hella easy to get hurt that way and not see it coming. Maybe that's what I'm afraid of, allowing myself to get hurt even though I see it coming. Letting go has not been my strong point recently, but I've wised up and I can see that certain people should not and will not be apart of my life and thoughts any longer. I can't deal with the lack of friendly reciprocation... being made "an option" instead of a priority. I will simply choose to no longer care. These are matters that have been heavy on my heart and head lately. How long can I put up with being treated so wrongly? I know that love makes no record of wrongs, but at some point you have to cut yourself off from situations that are hurtful to you and hold you back. Well, consider me a bravebird (Amel Larrieux) free from the people that hinder me, where I'm trying to go with things. But yeah, aside from dealing with that and spiritual matters (tho I am getting there, and that's all that SHOULD matter) my life is starting to look a LOT better. I feel like I'm being set up for greatness on SO many levels, and with that my spirituality is moving in step and blessings are on my path.
Posted on 5.30.2006 at 10:49 PM
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