To hell with rationality. I'm sick of it and of delayed gratification and patience. I want to scream sometimes because I want my happily ever after NOW, the family of my own, the dream job, dream home... but I know that I won't be able to really appreciate any of those things if I don't start out with nothing. This staying up late is getting out of control too. I need to get into some kind of sleep groove. Hopefully now that Gabby will be home since school is over she can help me wake up cus I have just completely shut DOWN this past week at home, and it's really time to get on the ball... plus I have a lot of work to do before I go to ATL for the weekend (YES!). Also, I'm psyched about this BBQ I'm going to on Sunday. I think it will be a good atmosphere for real. I hope red head can go to it with me, if not I may DARE going by myself. I can handle it I think... what do you think? O wait, it doesn't matter does it? :) For real though, since I don't know anyone except the host and maybe one other person I'm going to need some back up so that I won't end up talking to myself... or worse, pull my classic retreat-into-a-corner-and-write-in-your-moleskine-notebook-because-you're-alone thing. I do that when I HAVE to attend weddings alone. No one should have to do that though, It's God awful unless you know most of the people attending. I'd feel better abt going alone if I knew the host well, but ~psh... I don't even know if it's fair for me to say that I "know" him... that's a strong word in this situation. It will be nice to encounter a bit of randomness while in in ATL for those few days though... and I'm sure there will be.
Posted on 5.21.2006 at 5:07 AM
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