(I promise this isn't really about anyone, but a question...mentioned below... did inspire my writing it. The person who asked the question knows who he is.)
I can't really explain to you what's going on with me right now, but I know that it's a good thing. Finally, I'm making definitive steps in the right direction. Sadly, few of the people in my immediate space even GET what's going on with me... and it's pointless to try to explain it to everyone.
One of my friends yesterday asked me why I was making so many drastic changes with myself... with my tattoo, relationships, spiritually. Thing is, these changes are the direct result of the spiritual changes going on in my life. These outward changes represent what's going on inside my heart, a heart daily more poised toward God.
It's amazing, but once I acted firmly (with the help and guidance of God) on some of my personal convictions, club-going, interactions with men, music and other media choices (very slowly) my outlook on life began to flip. I don't want to go back to where I was. A few years in prodigal land is MORE than enough for me. I'm ready for the real.
If you really want to understand what's going on with me, ask God. All I can tell you is that I'm experiencing a paradigm shift and a lot of things and actions and probably people will have to be removed from my life in order for me to continue on to where headed.
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