In Ecclesiastes, the bible speaks of seasons "A Time for Everything" : "There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven"- Ecclesiastes 3:1
As I consider the past couple of years of my life in terms of seasons I can see that there have been seasons of sadness, discontentment, searching, loss, lonliness, silence, bewilderment, stagnance, boredom, hopelessness. It's comforting to look back upon these and see that they've past for now. Inevitably I will experience some of these seasons again, and maybe even soon than I think, but with new perspective and acceptance.
It occured to me recently that I'm going through the opposite of lonliness right now. I'm never alone recently, but now might be a time where I need to be, since I'm moving far away and I need to process that. Knowing me, I'll simply process it when I get there. Why think about it now? How could it help? On the one hand I've been bored because my work situation is predictable and I seem to be in a weekly rut in terms of the things I do, but I'm finding myself faced with these opportunities to do things and be places with people I always chill with but also with those I hadn't previously considered. In a way I'm like "what happened?" Back then, didn't want me... now I'm leaving, they all on me. I do find this all quite amusing and entertaining so I promise I'm not complaining.
With what I just said, I'm not talking only about guys... but I'm getting into that now. Real talk: Genuine guys don't approach me usually. I get stuck with the triflin, less-than-stand-up, backboneless, disappearing, roundabout, ambitionless, mindless dudes. But now... things are looking kinda nice, well maybe not quite nice yet, but better, on the up and up.
There is hope.
Posted on 6.22.2007 at 3:47 PM
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