So, today was the 2nd Easter in a row that I didn't make it to church. My friend says compared to last Easter's position I'm making progress, but I feel like I'm running in place, or maybe I just sat out. I can't fully identify with Christ's resurrection in my own life and make it my own if I continue to be unwilling to experience the death. Christ died and rose again. I'm simply unwilling to let myself go. I'm afraid to admit that I don't trust God... but there's so many things about my life and the things I want for my life that I'd sooner not let go of and trust Him with.