Why is it so easy for me to slip into somber mode when I think about the fact that Sean and I are no longer together and may not ever be again? I no longer want to talk to anyone today. I definitely don't want to listen.
This is a challenge because it feels like God is sayin, ok well you've been celibate for some years now but is it still for the right reason... or is it due to unfamiliarity? do you think YOU'RE the one keeping yourself abstinent?
Cuz we were limiting each other's potential, stunting the growth God had planned for us in coming years...he needed more space to get an even clearer look at the vision God began showing him while we were together and I was too naively hung up on the prospect of marriage... but it was supposed to be forever me and him and I was made at God about it for a long time.
We needed to separate for the greater good of what God needed us to do separately and in order for us to grow.
I do more sharing how I feel than asking for stuff. I don't know what to ask for.
-"Ask God to show you how you can be happy, maybe?"
Maybe. I don't think I'm unhappy though. I don't smile for show and I smile a lot not that people expect me to. I like where I'm at mostly.
-"True, but you're still having a hard time letting go of the past.... I mean all I'm saying is that God will grant you comfort if you ask for it...He'll even show you who to encounter for your 'love' life.... if you ask Him to. Don't be afraid to be selfish for God's sake. He wants you to be."
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