Yes, I had a significant other for a few hours last night... unfortunately it was only on camera. The significant thing about it though was that I reached some necessary realizations about life, about my life, about God's plan for me, about patience... You could say I had and epiphany...
We drove out to North Georgia to film an iMovie. I was playing someone's girlfriend in the film, which was weird for me having been single for quite a while, but cool. My co-star dude was cool as hell, personality off the chain and that made filming life so much easier... being that this was my acting debut (and probably the fall of my career at the same time, lol). Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I stayed up all night, yep... I still have not slept... anyways though... I thought a lot during my allnighter. I feel like I gained perspective on the whole relationship thing, finally. Last night on the way to the mountains I was thinking about patience and how I need some in this whole significant-other-acquiring deal, but at that point it felt more like a distant notion. However, this morning as the sun was rising over I-575 as we all headed back to the city it hit me like, 'Wow, I know so many cool guys that it's nice to be single sometimes, maybe even a lot of the time." The single life if spent wisely and treasured really is a beautiful thing. I can just up and randomly play girlfriend to a beautiful, cool dude with no worries and just have fun and just be me, as I'm continually figuring out who she is through such experiences. I like having roots and a place to rest but it's nice right now to just be able to pick up and do whatever (almost) not having to answer to anyone but God.... not that I'm being destructive. It's just nice to be free of wifely and girlfriendly pressures and duties and expectations and emotions. Also, I'm thinking if God is letting me keep all of these cool guys for friends, then I KNOW he's got an awesome man planned for me to meet (or maybe we've already met) and get together eventually in His perfectly Divine timing. I just need to walk in the patience and keep faith and hope in the revealing of His plan for my life. So what's the point in stressing over where I am right now. I'd do right to enjoy every moment so that I won't end up a middleaged wife who feels like she needs to revisit her 20's and pick up something she missed or let go of too quickly... or be that girlfriend who pressures her man to propose when he's not ready to be on that tip. I thank God that I can finally see that now.
Posted on 1.17.2007 at 3:03 PM
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