You forbid me to? Um, excuse me... I'm 24 now, no longer a teenager struggling to leave the house and get some independence, no matter how cruel it was. Wasn't that part of the deal of leaving the house, autonomy and decreased dependence on you to make decisions for me? And now you want to give me an ultimatum... want to forbid me to do something I want to do because you disagree with it?
Really, if I'm not living in the house anymore and I'm grown, how are you going to put me in this situation like this? Please let me be an adult. I moved to Tallahassee alone, now can I do this too? Mom says that we are blessed when we submit and obey, but I haven't signed up for a husband yet. What if one day I came to you and said I was gay (which won't happen, because I'm not), would you disagree and forbid that too? Don't you love me enough to let me make my own choice.
You love me so much that you would piss me off and make me face the choice of having a rift between us and your disapproval versus going against what I want to do. Thing is, if I don't do this, then there might always be a rift because you didn't 'let' me. I feel like you're controlling me, and it's very unfair. I've never been a major disappointment to you, and I don't want to be now... but I need you to let me do this... let me be me and find my own way.
At least you could ask me why. Can't you respect that I'm not where you are spiritually, let go and let God handle this. It's not worth my resenting you... but I think I might if you don't play fair.
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