WoW... Today has been interesting. I can honestly say that I would rather fast from food than from Sean, which probably means that I'm fasting the right thing (or person actually). I guess I feel a little closer to God. I've been talking to him more today because I'm not supposed to call my sweetie. It's really a nice thing to know that God is always around and ready to listen. Because Jesus' Holy Spirit dwells within me I know that when I'm talking to Him, I am actually talking to Him that is in me. That's just really cool to think about. When you consider that it's REALLY hard to think about trying to hide an action or the smallest thought from Jesus because He knows. He will always know what's going on with us. In that sense though, I sometimes feel like there is no need to talk to Him since He already knows, but wouldn't I rather someone talk to me and tell me about their lives directly than for me to merely overhear? I do think I am missing Sean more than I missed my food those other Wednesdays though, seriously. I will be alright though. This is better for me, for him and for us as a couple. I am starting to genuinely feel excited about where God is leading me, what He has for me. I feel more motivated. I'm pretty sure this is not in my head. While at work today (actually I'm still here presently) I was looking on the internet for a purity ring to keep on my ring finger until it's replaced by an engagement/wedding ring someday...if that's part of what God has in store for me. I just want to remind myself continuously of the covenant I have made with God that will be in the future with my husband. In Christ, all things are made new and for the first time in my walk, I am feeling new. I'm tired of struggling with past sins. I know I am forgiven and when I accepted Christ and decided to live the life He wants me to live, that old person died and I just need to live like I believe that, so that purity ring will be a symbol of my declaration that I have been made new in Christ and washed with His blood. I will die to myself daily so that I may remain with Him. Yay, this summer is starting to look all beautiful and stuff. :o) I am really excited and all, but I still can't wait to see Sean tomorrow. He's such a sweetheart.
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"~2 Corinthians 5:17
Posted on 6.9.2004 at 3:17 AM
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