bleh

It's been a while since I wrote something up here, so I figured I'd end March with a little further discussion.

A thought..."A door purposely left open, but never to be walked through..." I have one of THOSE in my life. It's funny how God convicts our thoughts and actions making us see things differently making it impossible for us to return to those things. In my case, those things comprised a major part of my life. I just kinda had to drop everything and regroup. It's been a slow process (the regrouping) but it's cool.

Life is so hectic right now. I need some kind of balance. I have so many commitments and I can never focus on all at the same time. When I focus on one, the others are neglected. That's how it is with classes also, but I'm doing ok. God's taking care of those. I refuse to allow school to be a parasite that lives off of MY life. I'm also about tired of being a PL for the simple fact that I don't get my own room. I guess otherwise, the residents are great. My roomie's sweet too, but I've never liked sharing my living space. I doubt that I ever will. I think the only person I could ever live with and not care about having to share space with is my best friend Cicely, only because I would give her my legs (or arms) if she needed them and because we usually know what each other is thinking, so we can anticipate needs and stuff.

I'm getting to old for this college stuff now. It's time to move onto to a job, a house and a family of my own. The instability of school is slowly wearing me down. I am sick of not knowing where I am going to be living from one semester to the next. I am just sick of it all. So sick, that I have resorted to taking summer school to speed up the process.

Enough griping for me. I'm going to watch TV now. Ciao!
Posted on 3.31.2004 at 9:27 PM