Why is it so hard to let go? Why can't I just be happy that they're happy? It's not like I didn't feel like they'd end up together for crying out loud, I spoke it. What is this stupid, wrong desire to not want your ex to be happy? It's stupid. It's not God-like at all. It's downright sinful.

How am I just going to fall to pieces after seeing them together? I KNEW they were together for a while. I felt that. Why am I so upset now? I just want to be together with someone... it has nothing to do with him... or her. I'm happy that they're together. God obviously designed their relationship. I mean if it's God's plan then what's the big idea? How dare I sit up and trip, even though I feel overlooked... but what have I done to yield myself to being prepared for being with who God has for me? Nothing. I'm so pathetic. I must rebuke these selfish thoughts and get past this and let it all go for once and for all, so that I can be free.