Enough of this

Enough of this... I'm just ready to be who I am. Why is it so hard to live in and be content with the present though? That's what I will pray for, that I can live for the present and hope for the future without creating my own God-absent vision of what it should/could be like. If his word is a lamp unto my feet I shouldn't be making up what He has yet to reveal to me. Not thinking very far ahead is difficult for me though. I'm a visionary. I like to think far into the future and consider what is and what could be, but I guess that's hurting me know... because I wear my heart on my sleeve.