Poof

Why can't it just be like "Girl, I met this awesome guy, Jesus, and He's precisely all I've ever wanted and needed. I know this is going to last!"? Why is it instead: girl meets boy, girl hopes high and these hopes are dashed by boy inevitably (because boy is human)? How do I continue on expecting so much and always getting the short end of the stick? You would think I'd stop being so easily amused by these jokers or at least I'd learn to no hope so high. Ok, so you meet a guy who seemingly has similar beliefs and seems to be deeply interested in you... that does NOT qualify him as an automatic Mr. Right... or even a suitable date and it CERTAINLY does not give you license to flitter around on cloud 9, head over heels.

It's just that I'm a damsel in distress waiting for a Prince Charming to scale infinite obstacles and save me from my castle of despair where feelings of lonliness are sometimes restrained but mostly reign supreme, and I search for comfort only to find it in temporary manifestations: fleeting excitement like clubs, parties and drinking and keeping company with guys who I feel have potential... or maybe far from it. This perpetuates an unfulfilling cycle of almost-steady disappointment... yet my hopes won't die. They'll contine to slay me, however, until I shift them to hope in my ETERNAL heavenly father. Maybe then I'll be slower, at least, to mistake situations for what they aren't or fudge good situations with hopes of unrealistic outcomes and seeking for needs to be met in the wrong channels.

So now I must "woo-sah" and say "What next Lord?... Passion 07? Alright then." One can only pray but so much to not care that he (whomever he is) may have lost interest. . . I'd just prefer that you hurt my feelings directly rather than tip-toeing around them. Trust... liking you is not falling for you (if that's what you're afraid of), and I'm not trying to be a friendly fixture if you don't want me to be. Just say the words and I'll "Poof!" with no regrets know that God has ordained my steps, which may seem like missteps, and failure is an opportunity to learn.