So i'm sitting up in the student center cafeteria. I was supposed to go to the library for a flash tutorial...I may still go, but I'm cold and they are not going to let me bring my chocolate milk up in there so I probably need to finish it. I guess you could say that's why I'm here or maybe I just need to write a little something. As I was walking to class earlier this morning I was just thinking about how different I see things. It's like I don't need so many things to give me an identity. Don't get me wrong, I do still find myself clinging to some things because it's human to be materialistic and like compliments, but I do feel like I'm at the point where "Crystal" is my identitiy. I need to get to the point where Christ in me is my identity. No, I am definitely not there yet, but I thank God that I'm at the point where I know what my identity is not and where if certain things were taken away from me, I would still know who I am. I understand that I can't take anything with me, not my body, not my car,my jewelry, not Alpha Delta Chi, not anything I could possibly be associated with because all of those things fade away. In the next moment my life could completely change forever, without my even immediately knowing and I would have to be prepared to trust God in whatever direction He chooses to lead me. I know I have been praying a lot for motivation and the grace to sustain me while I remain here at tech, but at the same time, I know God has me here for a pupose, a purpose that I haven't completed yet. I know I'm here to leave some kind of spiritual imprint in His Name and I don't altogether know how I'm supposed to do that but I've been taking some steps. I would like to not be such a control freak now that I'm supposed to be acknowledging God's control over my life. You see, I understand that I was never at any point in control of things.
Today my EAS Professor talked about evolution and the formation of the Earth. Science says the Earth is 4.6 Billion Years old. It's amazing how people can spend their lives trying to prove their own theories and trying not to acknowledge God as creator. The earth did not "form" by itself, God CREATED it. How can I believe that the earth was created in one day (and life in a week)? Well, God is God and no matter how much time geologists say it takesfor different things to happen on earth's surface I know that God is more powerful than anyone or anything so if he wanted to make the earth in day, well he is more than capable. If he wanted to stop EVERYTHING right now, He could. God doesn't see time like we do. He CREATED time. He TRANSCENDS time. Why is it that we as humans insist on going against th truth so that it can make more sense to us? Truth is truth. God is TRUTH. God is LOVE. God is PURPOSE. How can one live a life that has any eternal meaning without first acknowledging God? What would life mean? Could one take that meaning and apply it after death? What is a real legacy?
Posted on 11.11.2004 at 10:02 AM
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