stop playin

Alright, so basically it's time for me to stop playing and get on the ball in my walk as a Christian. It's time for me to seriously stop trying to rely on myself because that's obviously not going to work. I think God is sitting back thinking "How much do I have to put on her a semester and deliver her from before she will start to rely on me and not herself." With each increasing semester it seems, I have been getting more and more stressed...even over this summer I was stressed. I thought I was stressed, but now I'm really stressed. The whole PL thing is crazy now. Last year our floor was placid, now there is so much to think about. God has entrusted me with so much. I feel blessed to be in such a position to serve Him, but at the same time its a lot of responsibilty. I have so many things to think about just in terms of our floor alone, not to mention my day to day interactions and struggles in my own life. And therein lies the problem, I'm acting like "I" am the person who has to bear this burden and I should be handing it over to Jesus. With each new semester it seems as though I'm less involved activity-wise, but exponentially more busy so OBVIOUSLY God is trying to get at me. I don't blame Him though. I need to stop trippin, trying to be Shera over here and do everything myself. What the heck is wrong with me?! He ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS provides for me and yet I always try to carry the burden as far as possible. It's so stupid, but I guess mere human nature is that of stupidity. Self-reliance is fluke and the illusion of independence, but we all depend someone or something, so why don't we rely on something reliable. "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.~2 Corinthians 4:18" That passage may seem intangible, but it's real. It's the word of God. What's unseen is ETERNAL. It's everlasting. That means it won't run out on you...like substances or people. God is eternal, so why not rely on him? We have so much faith in sports teams and even in our cars and in the people we love, but what about God. Stop and think for a moment, has he EVER let you down? Naw, for real. I'm not talkin about something as minute and insignificant as a test grade that has NO eternal bearing whatsoever. I mean, have you undergone any hardship that did not eventually work out, for the good?...or at least make you stronger. Deaths are never good, but God always allows them to happen for a reason according to him infallible plan. So maybe instead of turning away from Him, we should turn to Him and ask Him why things happen and not other humans who have the same amount of a clue that we have or even less still?


I don't know why I felt compelled to write the above statements, but I hope that someone may be blessed with them. I don't even know how I ended up talking about death...

God is awesome and He's waiting to be YOUR best friend if you will pursue a relationship with Him.


"A Mighty Good Leader"- Audio Adrenaline

Flooded by an ocean
Of some mixed emotions
they got you down again
Pride and passion
Physical attraction
Whatever thing you're in
These temptations
Causing you frustrations
What you need is a friend
Someone who loves you
Who is above you
Take away all your sin

Help is on the way (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Help is on the way
A mighty good leader is on the way
He's the only one gonna come and save the day
It's alright, yeah, uh-huh, its Ok
'Cause the mighty good leader is on the way

Now this someone
Knows where you come from
Doesn't care where you've been
He can put back
Pieces that you lack
Make you whole again

Help is on the way (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Help is on the way
A mighty good leader is on the way
He's the only one gonna come and save the day
It's alright, yeah, uh-huh, its Ok
'Cause the mighty good leader is on the way
Posted on 10.10.2004 at 7:06 PM