In one of my illness-induced sleep spells earlier today I had an awful dream. I dreamt that I married the wrong person and that I had realized it before the honeymoon started. It was upsetting because I felt trapped my new husband was not listening to me or accepting what I was saying. I don't know what had brought me to the point where I was in that dream, but the guy I ended up marrying was from my past and I just remember in the dream I kept saying to myself "Oh No, I've made a terrible mistake." It was so horrible I woke myself up. I don't know what makes the human mind bring up random articles and people and put them in our dreams. I know the marriage thing wasn't entirely random. I guess the whole matrimony thing has been on my brain for the past month or so because I've been around newly married or engaged people. That's probably also contributed to my restlessness with being here at school. I just really feel like leaving school and starting my LIFE. This has all become so mundane to me, but I know I need to learn contentment with where I am. It's like as soon as you learn to be content, then God feels like He can trust you to move on in life to something else.
Posted on 9.18.2004 at 10:40 PM
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