Is there no end to immaturity or will we all go through life doing things or making decisions and within the same day reflecting on the actions and being like "Dang, I thought I was an adult?! Why did I act like that?" I had one such moment today at lunch when I saw a sight I wasn't necessarily prepared for. I mean I'm over the past, but I'm not good at dealing with the future so I have to get in the right mindset in order to deal in the best way possible. I didn't walk over and say hi first because I figured it would eventually be done so in passing due to proximity and I didn't want to give any mixed signals, but that's probably something that should no longer be my concern anymore. So, I am left to wonder... was I civil or did I act like someone still easily swayed by what other people may think? Was I really acting like an adult and firstly someone who knows that God has their back? I don't think so. I think I was tripping and being weirded out due to childish assumptions. For that I am sorry. It's just an addition to the ever-daily reminders that I am not perfect. Humility is a good thing. One of my staff members spoke to me today about my beef with the outdoor challenge thingy. I said I didn't like it because I didn't like outside and he said Jesus spent a great deal outside. That really shut me up. That's good though. Then he said the thing is to approach it with the right attitude. "God has a plan" That's going to be my motto from now on. I need to have the right attitude about stuff. Attitude may not be "everything" but it is most things. Attitude comes from the heart.
Posted on 8.4.2004 at 5:26 PM
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